Day 3

Stepped on the scale this morning: 154.8 lbs. WOOHOO!!!!! Down six pounds on the morning of Day 3...thats awesome.

Last night I had some trouble falling asleep. Hunger pains still aren't that bad, but who knows? All my juice is gone (never taking juice before I go to sleep ever again, I think that was a contributing factor) except for carrot juice.

Instead I'm going to make another trip to Whole Foods and grab some Flaxseed Oil (rec: 2 tbls per day), Cranberry Juice, and I think that was all....Lemon and ACV I already have so...mer.

Today my hunger has a little more MMMPH. No juice today (cuz its GONE, but that was the goal so...) I think I'll continue drinking 6 ounces of carrot juice a day, just because my eyesight is going to shit.

My friend told me that Ford (Model Management) scouts will be here next Saturday. I'm not ready...proving my point that I should always be prepared and ready for anything. So many opportunities have come my way and I haven't been able to seize them because of my (weight) addiction and sabotage of food.

Christin and I are now talking about the Thanksgiving Miami trip!!! WOOHOO!!!

"Would you like some bagel with that cream cheese?"

Update: 10.36PM: Hunger has had me wandering the kitchen all day. That whole "out of sight, out of mind" concept is soooo true! I went downstairs to watch a movie, not a good idea because in every other scene they're eating something delicious, and I found a box of twizzlers under the TV stand...where the hell did that come from? I smelled them...they smelled so fresh!!!

In the kitchen it was the worst. Caramel apple dip was teasing me. The frozen waffles in the freezer screamed "TOAST ME!! BUTTER ME!!! SYRUP ME!!" Even the honey was dying to be opened. The Honey Mustard was chillin on table daring me to open it, at one point it was so bad I had to open the freezer and take out some frozen fruit. I'd chew it and swallow the juice, then spit out the "food" part of it just to feel like I was eating. I licked some cinnamon (it's a thermogenic) and even had a dash of Season All (not allowed, but I figured it was more like half of a dash for taste wouldn't murder me). Honey is okay as well, just as long as I don't eat the entire bottle.

I had a swig of apple juice, a swing of carrot juice, and mostly water with ACV in it all day today. Hopefully that will help with the fat flushing.

ADIDABB: All Day I Dream About Bread and Butter. OH MY GOSH that's the worst. Toasted bread, with delicious butter melting on it. That image has stayed in my mind. And I've been fantasizing about twizzler's. I had to flick them off the table and back onto the floor just so they'd be out of sight. I thought about Ruby Tuesday's hamburger again...and grilled cheese...and cheese in general, especially white cheddar and jack like on my chipotle burrito...oh yeah.

I'm doing well, its almost the end of Day 3. I'm looking forward to seeing how much weight I've lost in the morning. :) I miss salmon. And cheese. And bacon. Ooooh, bacon. Even salad...or a cucumber. Shit, SOMETHING. Anything!!! I want to go lick the butter stick in the fridge...the hunger itself isn't that bad, but just the thought of FOOD is driving me apeshit crazy. The cravings are ridiculous. I'm not even hungry, every so often my tummy will rumble, but I drink some water and that goes away. It's the addiction and habit of eating that's driving me nuts.

Just some thoughts...

"Would you like some yogurt with that granola?"